stabbed heart

In this cold and dark night I'm thinking that exactly 5 years ago aslmost at this hour you were leaving us forever.
If you were still here I'm sure you'd want to see a smile on my face.
But tears just don't  how to stop themselves from dropping down on my face.
You were my strenght and my joy. And now I don't know how not to feel lost.
Time goes by too quickly, and I can't believe that 5 years are there between us.

No longer mourn for me when I am dead

Then you shall hear the surly sullen bell

Give warning to the world that I am fled

From this vile world, with vilest worms to dwell:

Nay, if you read this line, remember not

The hand that writ it; for I love you so

That I in your sweet thoughts would be forgot

If thinking on me then should make you woe.

O, if, I say, you look upon this verse

When I perhaps compounded am with clay,

Do not so much as my poor name rehearse.

But let your love even with my life decay,

Lest the wise world should look into your moan

And mock you with me after I am gone.

(Shakespear, Sonnet 71)

I never told you how greatful and happy I was to have you in my life, and realized  it while you were dying. I'm doing it now with this post, but I'm sure you knew it even without this.

All I can do now is sending kisses to heaven.